Hello there neighbor I,m in Orange county and your post really interested me, I think we have things in common I was married many yrs ago and sadly she passed and i was her sub, and to be truthful i loved it more then anything, over the yrs I have had normal relationship and I was always lieing to myself to the ladies i so much wanted me them to lead me when i brought up anything like them forcing me to do something to them, nothing happened would love to chat with a like minded lady